Here’s to Week One

Week one in Medicine. Everything seemed nice in the morning on the first day (Monday) until evening approached, and I realized the amount of information in the coming days. Seating in the library and questioning why it took this long to figure out my schedule, I tried to bombard myself with so much information for the next day, simultaneously reviewing the lectures from the present day.

Unaware of how I would balance everything, I panicked a bit because it felt like there was no direction or a way out of this mess I had created. Leaving the library at 7 pm, I got home by 7:30 pm feeling exhausted

Now day two coming around, I looked fine, but, internally, I was filled with so much anxiety, "there is so much to cover and so little time," "do I need to stay in school all day to accomplish my tasks," "will it always be like this"…

 I had become exhausted by these thoughts and didn't know when I fell ill from constant worrying.

By Wednesday, I realized that my worrying was futile because there were things I could control, like updating my schedule and always being aware of what I needed to do. I took note of the lecture times and then the times outside school hours I could use to study.

This understanding literally eased my stress, and so far, it has been working.

Lesson: when things feel way out of control, do not focus on the big picture because you can't do it all at once; instead, focus on the little things in your control. Trust God to make a way out because he knows and understands and wants you to cast your burdens on him. My burden was the overwhelming amount of information in the first week. I noticed that by Thursday, I felt relieved because I let Jesus take the wheel and guide me through the help of the Holy Spirit.