Life as it is

Dealing with so much anxiety and self-doubt leaves me feeling like I am not good enough. Sometimes I find myself over thinking issues, and I catch myself having negative thoughts or speaking about my life; that the journey I started towards achieving all God has planned is not worth it. Today was one of those days where I felt so down and my spirit heavy, like every decision in my life has always been a mistake. 

But in all of this I got this word from God twice today-Psalms 42:11. I cried a lot realizing I had received this word previously at the beginning of the day; before my emotional down pour and the Lord reminded me again saying 

Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God! NLT

The first time,I did not pay much attention to it but at the later part of the day when those thoughts came rushing in I saw this verse again and I burst into tears. I love how the The Passion Translation puts it,

“so I say to my soul, 

Don’t be discouraged. Don’t be disturbed

For I know my God will break through for me”

And I thought - it is so easy to fall into a state of depression and think about giving up on life. I took time to tell God how I felt and how much I need His help. Many times, we let these intrusive thoughts dictate how our lives should go, but to be able to overcome them, you have got to fight it with God words. I have not given up and I know that the future ahead of me is bright that is why the devil tries to defeat me. 

And so I am telling my soul , mind and spirit yet again  Do Not Be Discouraged because my God will break through for me.