My Imperfections
Once, my sister commented, "you know you are a perfectionist," and I had never realized it until she mentioned it. I have in a couple of attempts to work on allowing myself some grace. But most times, my anxiety gets the better of me when I try to move on. I start to make so many scenarios in my head, "what if it doesn't come out well" or "what if I am not good at it "and in the end, I find my myself doing all this thinking but still feeling stuck like I can’t move. I feel I need everything to be perfect before I can execute, and if not, I do nothing at all. Even writing this, I struggle to make the words exhilarating and to catch my audience's attention. This constant battle on the inside pulls me into my comfort zone where I don't need to challenge myself. I do not deny that I am imperfect; my issue is that I want things always to go as planned, and when it doesn't, I let go and tend not to try again. All morning today, I sat in my anxiety and felt guilty for not acting on the projects I said I wanted to complete.
In all this, I read something a friend posted sharing her own stories too- (I will share the link), and she said, and I quote
We all have our God-given talents which we like to conceal as 'hidden talents. We are all created uniquely, with something to offer to our world. Some of us have figured it out, and some are yet to. But for those who have an itch, consistently resisting the urge to scratch, to go out in the open without the fear of risks and let the world see you, this is your sign!
And so, I leave you with the question: what's preventing you from flying high up in 'your' sky?-Seentia
Answer- absolutely nothing, than my mind constantly battling with me- so here goes posting this even in its imperfect state and freeing my mind from the guilt of not being competent enough.
... “LEAVE GROUND LEVEL!” Quietthoughts, 3 Sept. 2022, syeentia.com/2022/09/04/leave-ground-level/. Accessed 4 Sept. 2022.
